uber forgetting..

this blog .. DURRR! -___________-
i feel that i couldnt just pay attention to this, but at least today i did! ahhaah

a lot of stuff happened over the month ...
break ups, excitements, breakdowns, etc....
mom went to the philippines, had relationship troubles,
have a lot of issues with friends as of this moment...

probably the BIG lesson that i've learned so far
is KNOW THE PEOPLE AROUND MORE but NOT LOSE MYSELF
ALONG THE WAY! <3

very very looong time coming..

uhh yes!... a lot of things happened last month..
but i do NOT want to ponder on it since it doesn't matter! HAHHA
so this next sunday, spriiing forward! :D

can't waiit.. spring and summer !! WOOHOOOOOOOOOO..
and yes, im looking forward for mom to go to philippines
in a few weeks, so you know what that means! <3
hehehe...

anyways, you can find me in facebook most of the time! :)

new song, new thoughts, renewed feelings!

finally! for people who are TOTALLY bored of the previous blog song, here's a new one! just bought that song from itunes, and it's the theme song from THE CITY, of which i likeyy! <3 go WHIT.. ahahah

new thoughts... of putting in university of oregon as my choice of transfer.. hmm... probably it's a nice choice! WHY NOT! :D .. and i saw their transfer process...seems easy but still has that competency! and oregon is more laid back version of california.. probably i might thrive!

renewed feelings... now i know what's up! <3>

take a look.....

some genuine guy wanker... did left an evidence at the barnes and nobles' bathroom at tanforan! -.- .. classy eh?! HELL NAHHHH.. but it forces me to take a picture of it.. ahahahha.. and i peeked into the pages.. *ahem! .. and it's just ughhhhhhhhh... u know! pfffffff.... and u weren't even allow to carry a book at the bathroom! geeeeee...

anywhoo.. valentines 2morrow.. idk what to do, but hopefully watch a movie with "someone!" :) ....and yet i have some homeworks shitness.. that are majorly due next week! EEEPPP.. no worries, because they're all easy! :D

<3

best BIRTHDAY! :D

• thanks for the greets! (from facebook .. to texts/calls!)
• watched he's just not that into you (coincidentally, drew's character is sooo me right now! ughh)
• ate at bocadillos by north beach (montgomery and columbus streets), great spanish tapas plates! :D .. (patatas verduras AND the chicories are the BOOMB!..and probably the others too! ahaha..and also had halibut escabeche with yucca, and fruit sorbet--but more of a wine sorbet.. lol)
• went to berkeley (2/6)... went around telegraph, met up with michelle and her friend alexis... good ol times and just relieved that i get to see michelle again! :D
• most of all.. having tephy lou with me on this two-day extravaganza! .. ily! <3>

and now.. im 19! nothing changes, but probably for the better?! hmmm... we shall see.. and trish totally remind me that it's my last year of being a "teen" .. ! ughhh.. cuz then i will be twenty! ahaha..

..oh ya! i got a cal sweatshirt when i was at berktown! finally! :D.. hope that it will inspire my great mind to pursue a UC BERKELEY education after community college.. or upenn! but i will totally go for the better route... indeed! <3

hard to cope up!

that's how i feel with this blog right up on my ass..! it's not that im disappointed having this, but im disappointed towards myself..! honestly, since school have started 2 weeks ago, i'm either TIRED or incompetent to cater to this blog of mine.. but here are some of the details so far in my life:

• no more philippines for me, but for my mom, she's going there on march 26! ... and she will be there for 3 weeks.. excited for her, but not for me...! AHHA.. and it's my spring break a week after she leaves, so we shall see what will happens!
• my birthday is coming up! :D ... exciting week for me i guess.. since i will hang with tephy lou again..and im just wishing constantly that she gets into parsons... !!! and she will know this week, which is nerve-wrecking i bet! :x ..
• hmm.. classes have been tiring and down right bore! ughhh.. it's not that i got hard classes, but all of which are lecture-based! basically, i got to prove to my professors that im equally attentive and competent in their class!.. cuz right now, i feel that my momentum slips a bit..
• work have been ok! im still by myself, and will be til they hire by the end of the month or early next month... we'll see! :)
• relationship-wise, i feel that im ready again, but i want the moment to be stress-free! but i cant help it if these days are just stressful...!
• i feel that im missing my nirvana..and i bet i do! it's not what we see, it's what we feel...!

im on a rot right now.. i think! D:

SPRING SEM 'o9!

it started today...

i had english, psych, art, since it's tuesday and i have those three
every tuesday/thursday... then geog tomorrow (every mon/wed!)

oh gahh.. it was exhausting!! woke up at 5am.. briefly saw
the preps for the inauguration.. (didnt saw the main! but there was at school, though
i was out of my mind that i didnt saw the main part!.. lolol) .. then had quick bfast... started commuting
at 6... got at school around 7:30! :O lolol

then english... ms.jones was stressing the importance of the attendance!!
not even on the course matter, but it's mostly writing since there's no course book specifically!
she wants "comfort" so she wants us to have the MLA handbook... lololol

then psych (oh ya all of my classes ended earlier!) .. soo then i was amazed on
the size of the classroom! :D it's my kind of class foreal!.. (lecture hall-size!!!) .. dr.clifford (doctor cuz he has a ph.d!) ... he's sooo funny and chillax! hehhehe... but he knows his stuff alright! :) .. he's some neurosurgeon..something! LOLOLOL.. but overachieved indeed.. that i want to be like HIM! :) even better tho.. hehheheh..

then art history... dr. black (again got ph.d!) .. very cute, fabulous, and chic! HEHEHHEHE.. but i like how she stressed on the importance of being awake in class, while im drowzing off! BWHAHAHHHAHAH... o.O... and i cant wait for the museum visits! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY... *by the time art class came along, i was sleepy for some reason, but hopefully she would understand?! IDK>>!

im soo exhaustedddddddddd.. that i finished late at work.. o.O .. gotta note to myself that i have to start closing earlier! :) .. or else.. kayy loves! <3

new leadership for better america!

QUADRUPLE blacklogging..

hehehe.. let's see...
got sick yesterday.. cuz of the stress that's associated with school
eventhough school haven't officially started... ! D:
mostly because of the costs of the textbooks that i have to get..
but my mom eventually agreed to pay it, since she's wayy concerned about
my move on purchasing it! (lmao.. i'd rather pay it, but THAAANKS MOM!)

so that's over.. then thursday (1/15).. it was my first year at work
and me being sarcastic, i received a great incentive!
73 fucking HOLDSSSSSS! D: .. that i had to process.. wtf?! i know! A LOOOOOTTT!!!
seriously, i should do holds every weeks... hihihihi..

and now..im still sick, little bit!
but i still feel that i am! throat hurts, kind of dizzy.. and feeling a bit cold!
ughhhhhh.... please don't let me sick on monday! because i have plans... D:

<3

yipeeeee! :D

view from the top of the hill at DOLORES PARK, sf!

it's official.. TODAY IS MY FIRST YEAR AT THE LIBRARY WORKINGGG! :D .. and the first job that i have for a year now.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! and omg... 3 bdays 2day... my coworker's bday, my former japanese teacher in high school's bday, and daddy jing's bday! oh wowwwwww

it's really one of those days that there's a purpose to go all out and celebrate... oh ya i get my SECOND paycheck of the year.. lol... :3 and too excited to get some books.. lolol..and pay some bills.. AHHAHHA.. <3

backlog:

• went to dolores park twice!! (on tuesday by myself, before i work!.. then yesterday with paula j!) ...and had bi-rite creamery twice! heh.. (my fave icecream shop around dolores and SF! rawrr)


• trying not to shoot myself in the head at work, since im all by myself as a library page, until they hire someone in late february or early march... (loong way to go.. but i get more hours! :D)

minor backloggin'!

latests:

• watched the unborn, not the best scary movie ever, but have to see it cuz of my other friends who really want to see it! o.o (1/10)
• went to twin peaks after movies... nicest nights! :D .. and it goes on and on this week .. woohoooo.. !!!! and also daytime!! yayy.. (beach days or just walking days...)
• got killed by folks cuz i went home an hour after they would expect me to go home.. lololol.. but this kills my chance of me going to santa barbara for my bday weekend! D: (i will be quiet for a while, then ask them again ya?! .. but i told them it will be paid by me and will be inexpensive! heh)
• and now .. IM BORED! o.o waiting for the cable guy.. ughhhhh! HELP?! lol

<3

OH YAA.. next week is school again! :D .. cant waiit.. i gotta waste time this week for other non-school stuffs.. ! im up to anything.. hehehee

don't YOU

just hate

when people aren't

liking your decision what you make

whether it can make a small impact

or greater impact?!?!

i mean just a simple

"i don't want your choices"!!!

they would just BS it anywayss..

cuz they know that it can hurt me

but really.. honestly...

NO!

cuz it shows that you're straight up on me!

but if you're BSing it.. then you're not really dignified

on what you say!

peaceeee!! <3

epiphany..

as much as i want to get out there and just go wherever my feet and my imagination wants me to go, i hate the fact that there's money involve.. and im sooo poor as of now.. LOLOL.. D:

good thing that i have more hours at work, an hour more to be exact...! and that can probably fill up a hole in my bank, as much as possible! heheheh..

THINGS I HAVE TO think.. (financially) :

• santa barbara (2/6-2/8)
• college (haven't paid .. yet!, but registered!)
• not for another month.. but caltrain montly pass, and my cellphone bill (2009 is probably a good year for me to change my phone.. cuz i want a BLACKBERRYYYY! :D )

<3

just a quick thought process..that i just gotta let it ouut! :)

what's up?!

it's been melancholy these days...
since everyone is back to school again, but some aren't yet! (in two weeks tho! D:)

i got extra hours at work, yet again! since im by myself there... awwww..
and they won't hire another page around march! though i need those extra hours
just cuz i have to earn some moreeee...!! rawrrr..

then i havent paid my college stuff yet.. but i will eventually!
books are hella expensive, it will cost me around $400 to get everything (ALL FREAKIN USSEED!!) .. but i won't pay for that, since amazon have great deals, and libraries around here have my books available to borrow!! :D (though they only have the art history book that i need, which is the most expensive one that i hafto get!! might as well borrow it y'dig?! :D)
.. so basically, im saving over $200 !! amazon have cheaper deals so thanks in advance! heheh

yesterday, paula, one of my closest friend out there, invited me to come with her at seton, because her grandmom fractured her hips and have to get dialysis to live longer.. :( .. in a wayy her grandmom is fine now, but the cost of the accident is just devastating, since it happened during the holidays, and somewhat ruined the spirit, but brought her family closer... ALL MY PRAYERS and THOUGHTS to her grandmom! <3

SANTA BARBARA...

here i comeeeeeeeeeeeee!! :D

(got the ticket for $20, roundtrip via greyhound! WOOHOO!)

2/6-2/8 .. stayin at my bff's dorm in UCSB..
we're still on the fence about disneyland .. cuz itz kiinda far from santa barbara..
prolly go party liike a college betch ya?! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO <3

• i would LIKE to thank: carl jayson estrella.. bff for liife! for supporting my blog.. eventho he despise me soo bad! ahahhah .. luvv ya! <3
  

i'd RATHER...

be lean and healthy

than anorexic-looking and feel like that i got shriveled
because of non-traditional steps to being healthy..
ya dig?! ;P


my point is, be healthy as much as possible
eat right as much as you can!
and be more productive besides sitting down!

<3

a change of attitude..

why am i so crazily moody 2day?! D:

it started when, on my behalf, i accidentally purchased a wrong caltrain monthly pass! .. so then i told the caltrain folks about it through telephoning... then the rep that i talked to started to say different stuff, and his only option is i have to get a new one! i was like come on!!! you guys made an insaaane increase (25 cents... but really it's more $5, from the usual $59 that i buy last year, to $66 nowww!! )... then you're suggesting that i don't refund?!?!? WTFFFFFFF.. ughhhh.....

i was kind of loosing my patience because he doesn't understand my standpoint!! i bet caltrain is totally corrupted, that's why the increase isn't exactly the 25 cents increase.... lmaooo... and that's why the rep totally wants my moneyyyyyyyy.. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. i just wanna know where shall i refund my pass that's all.. and he's just totally flipping the situation!!...

can't do really right now, but i have to do something... so i would probably have to go to their office and exchange!!!.. or i can sue them, but it's just too expensive to sue them, or at least someone tell me how to start the judicial process for this, since they have the insubordination of increasing the fares, not in verbatim!!! UGHHHHHHHHH.. that can be a case really because i bet im not the only one who has this problem.... just wanna say..

FUCK YOU CALTRAIN!!!!... go shit in ur facesssssssss.. !!!!!!!!!!!!! no really
go suck my peepeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

peace.! <3

epiphany!

on my wayy home from work, i saw this utterly huge billboard sign by disneyland.. saying

free one day park admission on your birthday!

so i was liike.. OMIGAHHH!! :D ... that makes me think of february 7, on a
saturday.. MY UPCOMING 19th bday! woohooooooo.. and seriously i have NOT been to
disneyland OR socal for that matter since 2003 and 2007! ughhhh.. i feel that
this is the tiime....

then with the help of my uc santa barbara bestie friends, i can stay in their
dorm for free, and take advantage of my best friend javi's student advantage
discount card!! woohooooo.. thank god for thosee! <3

it would be exciting and just wholesome... maybe clubbing after?! AHAHA.. (we
shall see! )

reflections...

i had a blast hanging out with DJ again! :D ... it's been a while since we've totally hang because of conflicting schedules, and other issues... we saw seven pounds, very interesting and a compelling story for everyone, reminding us to reciprocate in life! .. which reminds me of how i should have indicated to DMV that i want to donate my kidney... ughh! but haven't really decided on it...

enya's songs are just the best.. (totally random thought!) .. it's something with her voice and the message of it ... a very spa-ish songs, but not sloppy! rawrrr...... and reminds me of someone right now, but i mean i have confidence that it will work.. not a promise, but just hope! :) .. <3

anywho, DJ is one of the person in this world that makes me smile and be real at least, showing some flaws for him! ... it's a special feeling really towards him, which not everyone gets! but i do care for him.. :) ...we have funs all the tiime we hang or just talk!

ohh garrshh.. 2nd dayy of the year
and i've been having some ease! ahaaha
not too long though, just don't jinx it ! :)
<3

happii 2nd day!

i made it!! :D

happy new year luvvzz!!!!!!!!!!!

mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3

let's make it real and memorable!