ending the year with a BAAANNGG! :)

woohoo.. 2008 will be a history in 4 1/2 hours! :D it's another year to deal with your life, but there's this excitement, of which, i just have to be optimistic, even though 2008 brought shiznitz! ughhhh...

so yaa.. for the last dayy.. i went to BERKELEY and SF! .. basically, i was retracing my adventures to places that i deeply more in love with! :) , but sadly, i went by myself because everyone seems busy! ... anyways, my journey started out to berkeley, which i started going to last october! ... telegraph street is the bigger version of haight out there, but the city itself is more intimate and more eclectic, rather than just a little part of a city, it's everywhereee! hehehe... there wasn't special going on because some of the stores are closed, and was going to be close at 4pm; thus, i window shopped most of the tiime, then ate at the HEALTHIEST and TASTIEST mediterranean spot on the block of bancroft and telegraph! yesss..... had a chicken shawarma with the typical fixins! rawrrr... yummeehhh..!

the very good cocoa from ciao bella gelatteria! :)

since berkeley wasn't hyped up.. (lol).. went to sf right after! .. first went down to union square.. of corz, went into urban outfitters and h&m.. and WHOOAA.. h&m had some sale, but i mean it's not as good as old navy, though old navy's stuff isn't my thing really so i didnt bother buying something at those respective shops.. so i window shopped there too, then decided to go down to embarcadero, tried the somewhat best cocoa drink inside the ferry building at the ciao bella gelatteria (beside miette patisserie- BESTEST MACAROONS! HEHEHE).. there's something in their cocoa that's not intense, but dusted with something to balance the drink out.. a MUST TRY really.. and i should try their cocoa with your choice of a gelato! yummmm.. <3>

castro, SF!

even though there are sales, i just bought a very genuine ecuadorian-made beenie.. and I LUVV the color 4realll! <3>CASTRO! woohoooooo... of corz, i window shopped, then went into books,inc.-one of my fave bookstore in SF,and the only bookstore that sells LGBT-related books.. !!!

really, twas a great day, despite of being alone and the weather.... typical december 31st weather in SF, foggy!!! :P .....

BACKBLOGGIN>>>

• passed my driving test!! WOOHOOOO.. badass driver heree. ahhaha. jk! ;D
• got sick few days agoo.. D: .. but im a bit fiine now! :)
• got my headphones!!! yayyy.. panasonic bigass headphone.. rawrrr.. cheaper at target than UO!

that's all LOOOVESS! <3

happy new yeaaarrr.. and have an optimistic and exuberant 09! :)

mwahhh..!! xoxo

woohoo?!

driving test.. TOMORROW! yayyy..
long tiime coming, but i guess it's all worthwhile?! hmmm....
ughhhh... !!!!!
(and yet i don't have a car of my OWN.. lol)


...oh ya! i got my xmas wish.. a BIG ASS HEADPHONEEE!!
woohoooooo.. thanks for target that it's $5 cheaper than at urban outfitters... ;D
grazie! mwahhh....

k dearrr.. <3

jealousy

since i've started college.. or at least i've started to gain knowledge about colleges, it seems that i've been jealous of where do people go to college!! i don't know, for me it's all about where you're going and the prestige that associated with your college... i am in a community college right now, but then again i have future plans of transferring to another college, preferrably a UC! ...reminiscing back during my senior of HS, i applied to some colleges that i could go in, but i failed in the end because i never had the funding for it... and since then, i've been having those regrets that i could've went to a better school, or at least to a 4-year college without going through a community college then transfer with a hassle! D:

ughhh.. it's just me, i envy people who are going to a "REAL" college, even those who are going to a private university, of which i dearly miss going to a private school! hopefully that i would be going to a private after 2 years, most likely USC or thank god if stanford would want me..! but you know what, im happy that im in a community college, just because i don't have to pay 5-figure sum for 2 or 2 1/2 years of my college, but i have to be instantaneous so that i can have a smooth transition to another college! :) ....seems reasonable, and come to think of it, i was one of the people who snobbed the reps from the community college when there were college fairs in my high school! AHAHAHHAH.. and now the guy from my community college, who went to my high school for college recruitment, knows me foreal because i was so boastful of me getting into a 4-year college instead of their community college! LOL... o.o ..

i wanna say to the incoming 2013 class, just because you know what college you're going into, think TWICE!.. you get accepted/rejected, but in the end, finances is still the top priority on all of this! .. not the credentials of your high school record, but how can you pay for your college?! .. and now i say that all colleges are created equal!! nothing is different, just the dynamics of the people who are in that particular college! nonetheless.....

NEW YEAR is coming up.. and i am SO not going to make a resolution, just because for the most part, it seems unattainable! but come to think of it, it's a pure reminder that there are flaws that have to be fixed! oh yaa indeed!!!!!!!! rawrr..

k loves.. <3 happy holidays! mwahhh

a message from the OFFICE OF FIERCENESS!

クリスマスお目でっとうございます！！！

feliz navidad y prospero ano nuevo!!!

joyeux noel!!!

maligayang pasko at manigong bagong taon!!!

mwahh!! <3

make it a good one..... ! woohoooooooo

it's something that i have to totally be greatful about it, since every aspect of my life, for now, have some sort of clear understanding.... which made a lot of courteous solutions..! THANK YOU!!! <3

FATE!... and new beginnings!

carrying the event from yesterday, which was the party... i was on a shopping trip at castro in SF.. and there's this familiar face from my life...of whom i havent talked in a while because of the past that isn't a great big deal, but i've thought of it as isn't going to work out very well because of something that i was emotionally attached still at that time.. even now!

it's like having your security blanket from your childhood that you can't just let go of it... meaning it will stay with you forever until it gets old and rotten!.. that's how i feel with a particular "thing"! i havent got over with it, but it's not too evident in my life, since i've moved on in a way... but then again, it's coming back! glad, yes.... nervous, yes! it's not an easy comeback because im not in control of it, it's something that destiny and will power does! ....

to that person of whom is saw at castro: i wish YOU all the best! and please change your habits... ! :)
to that person of whom i made promise with and rattled my human being these months and recently: i am willing to wait! :)..and you will expect a rejuvenated me! :)

3 fucking days till xmas.. and i hope my
headphones is there! :D woohoooooo......lolol
<3>
wish you a healthy life!

DESTINY?! ...fate?! ... itz just a coincidence?!

heyy lovers!
i just came home from my friend trish's xmas party..! it wasnt a helluva big party really, just the closest friends, her cotillion court and suchh... and i had funs funs fuuunsss! :D ... when trish throws a partyy, it's something that you have to look forward to, it's not a big deal, but it's something from trish when she invites, she wants you to be there and have fun! .... so then we had tonsa camwhoring (as usual! AHAHA).. and finally met ashley, their other friend, who is just cool and has that commonality with javi and trish combined! HEHEHHE..... pretty much just eat, OH and there's the secret santa a.k.a KRIS KRINGLE!..
so each one had a present for that, then i got my secret santa from my ex! HEHEHEHE... and it was a gift card, which would you think it isn't a thoughtful gift, but really for me gift is a gift, no matter what in any forms, and so i appreciated it very much! :) ... then everyone pretty much howled about it, since almost everyone in the room knew that we had a history! i dont really wanna ponder about that history, but it's something that it wasn't a bad one, in fact, it's something that me and him have to learn from it! ...

and if i ever wonder that coincidence was a destiny or fate?! it is really something that you do not expect, and the way that i reacted, i wasn't disappointed! i was happy and laughing at that tiime, since he was ingenious about how he put the gift card on, with that toilet paper holder! AHAHHAHA... thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!...

prolly you're reading this, but let me tell you, it's something that we don't have to talk about, we just have to move on, and stay friends..best of friends! :) yes?! ..and to people who witnessed that moment, do NOT worry about it! im alright..and hopefully he is alright! (he looks cute in eyeglasses BY THE wayYYY! ahahahh) ... lololol...

then i told about this to one of my best friends, and she says that it's not really those type of situations that you say "everything happens for a reason"..! and i agree cuz it's the will that makes you do happen that reasoning, rathen than the nature itself.. we rely on ourselves to make it happen, but really that's what it means for the most part of it!

but never say never ryt?! .... hmmmmmmmmmmm...

k dearss... merry holidays!
and please, let christmas be a way of
reminding you how the season celebrated with...
with LOVE! <3

a time of GIVING...

christmas, hands down, has been the time of the year of bountiful giving to eveyone in the world! even though there's the optimistic side of christmas, mostly; in these times of tribulations, we just have to be realistic and downsize our giving.... that's what rattles me right now!!

since i have not started my shopping for people that i dearly love, i've tried to budget my allowance for this season, but it seems that i've known these people around me who liked me as me... and those people who i dearly love, a.k.a the family! seriously.... im wrapping my idea around the "thought that counts" kind of thing! but when i plan, my ideas aren't arranged properly.. and then it consumes my precious times! D: ...

... but im goin to work it out! promiseee.... then if i wouldn't give any gift for some people... i have this idea of giving them a video of me, just a digital greeting per se. :) .. idk if it's clever, but it saves me tons of money! LOL...

k lovers, <3
happy holidays..and do NOT break the bank!

a challenge..with FUN!

so me and my best of friend, javi, decided to go to san francisco.. (yet again for me.. :D) ... but to watch MILK.... and yet, we were too laate for the showing (cuz of javi's hard sleeping habits! AHHAHA) so we went to union square! ... since we know that square by heart (and didnt have to figure out really!) ... we were the camwhores that we are! :) .. after that.. an elevator kid ride at the westin.. u better try those insaane elevators... prolly an elevator race!? xD .. ahahha.... thenn.. we decided to ice skate at the square.. OMG... lemme tell ya, it was my first and not so greeat for me! .. bff javi was expert on it.. but for me i was a fool... lolol...

and as long as me concerned, im soo willing to learn and study these type of challenges, and gladly i did, though i cant glide yet! :) ... and omg... freakin feet hurt soo baaaaaaaad! those ice skates arent a joke .. i thought they're just like regular shoes, but HECK NAHH! ... i idolized those ice skaters, and hopes to be one of them, but GODD... i dont want to anymore! ugh... but to be a professor i still want! :D .. hehehe..

then went to urban, and got a $9 skinny jeans..and twas from BDG! :D .... those BDG are good and the price.. WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ahahah

really a great day 2day.. with javi of courz... no dull days with javi that's for surree! :) . itz always a blast with her, and i really cherish our friendship! :)

k dears.. <3

happii holidays..

and try ice skating if u haven't! a challenge to beat! :)

san francisco..and tough times!

san francisco.. city by the bay! hmm...

i always say this, that san francisco has something new everyday! no really EVERYDAY there is something that you haven't seen the day before.. or the last time you went to SF! well take it from me, that im always in san francisco every week! LOL too much huh?! well it's not im taking illegal drugs that can deteriorate my life... AHHAHA.. but the downside though if you're in "the city", is that it can be expensive..! although i learned how to be cheap there, and still have the experience, new and refreshing in fact! i bet not everyone realize that, if you know your way in SF, then you would get more out of the city .. AND you will learn that be cheap is the wayyyy..

not everyone in SF, at least, wants the high life and shop by the high end stores at union square.... it's MORE THAN THAT REALLY! ... there's the pleasurable walks, the eclectic neigborhoods, the local food fares, the "confusing" MUNI buses/light rails, BART, and the people.. from the foreign tourists, down to the SF-bred folks! :D .. but interesting to meet a foreign tourists, and share some experience with that type of person in SF, since they make the city more exciting! hehehhe... (take it from someone who had that experience.. LOLOL) .. SF can be laid back all the time, but the hustle and bustle of the city life exists for sure, in a "green" way..! since everyone, mostly, commutes! you can say it's hard to drive around SF, but why drive?! YOU CAN JUST WALK up and down the hills of SF..... i would totally imagine myself living in SF..and walk to my workplace, buy my groceries at a corner health shop, shop for clothes at haight/fillmore/et al., go sunbathe in my fave beach (BAKER BEACH!)--or go nude too!, and just jog around SF... UGHH.. someday really! i promise....!! :)

tough times coexists with my face foreal... ughhhhh!!! D: .. this morning (or at least while im sleeping).. i kept on scratching my face.. and i woke up with a red face, and puffy eyebags... i was like WHOOAAA... do i have some sort of allergic reaction? or is my surroundings dirty?! hmmm...... but all i want to do is STOP USING PROACTIV!! i think that stuff kills me totally..... and now i have a big zit, and its little children.. wtf?! AHAHHAH... oh gahh... why now?! OMGGGGG.. i feel like i wanna hide for few months....!!! but cant do that really.. just have to live with it.. and look at this as if everyone has one too.. LOLOL.. :)

we just feel insecure with our face, most especially colored folks like me, because we get the worst reaction on it! seriously, and going to the dermatologist is expensive in a way, and i do not get derma in my insurance... D: ... i just have to drink lotsa water and stop using proactiv and drug that would kill my fucking face.... unless if there's something that i would believe that it would heal! ...

• oh yes... before i leave, i just wanna recommend JAMES MCWHORTER'S book- the power of babel, natural history of language .. i just started to read it and let me tell ya that he has the radicalist take on how language got created in the beginning, and how morphing other languages (like latin) can benefit the future, and how we comprehend what we say! .. and also, he's an associate professor at UC BERKELEY.. so basically, he's my HERO for linguistics.. which i would want to pursue! and ... be a professor like him in a prestige college like cal berkeley! :)

ok love y'all! <3

happy holidays too!

revelation...!

i guess it's just me.. that i have this sort of the attitude problem?! because just few hours ago, my mom can't control herself (yet again...), and out of nowhere, the bad attitude of mine just came out! ugh... im trying to control it, but then again i can't! seems natural for me to have that kind of attitude...! it's just annoy me that one simple thing became a gargantuan of just hate to every part of my fucking life...!

seriously though, that happens all the time when i snap! then they would knit pick my life... just saying stuffs that's too complicated to tell them, since they won't listen to me..! and my fucking sister is the most annoying betch in the world... HELLZ YA! got that right?! NO bullshitting about it... that's why i am not so fond of seeing her all the time, even the weekends... i have the total hate towards my sister, not just her ways but her being the "bigger" human in this types of situation, whereas, she shouldn't be in it.. FUCK THAT!

i do NOT acknowledge her advices and what not ... and if ever i get to be the badass person later on, i would rant her human being out all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy from the past, and up until the present.. ya, i would totally TOTALLY do that for real! ....

since im living still with my folks, can't really be that badass person that i would like to be, but i just couldn't wait...!

that's a promise....

hallerrr..

i vow to blog foreal! :)

ahhaha...

ようこそ！！！

-means "welcome" in japanese!! :)

and probably blogspot has better

benefits than xanga..! ahhaha

anywho, this is just a trial

for my new "daily" blog ..

later lovess! :)